A look back at the last few weeks

Well I can honestly say its been a rough few weeks but this past one has been a little quieter.

See my mom got really sick. It happened to us very suddenly but it appears she's been sick for a while now.

I had planned on taking off the first week of July to spend time with the kids and that happened until that first Tuesday. I knew when my sister called me something wasn't right but I answered the phone making a joke like I always do only to find out that Mom was in the emergency with what we would later find out was a tumor on her colon.

It was rough to see your mother in so much pain, to go through major surgery, to recover so slowly but she recovered and on the road to being herself again.

But what was hard too was not being able to spend the time I had promised Sarah I would spend with her. The late nights of being up, not being able to sleep, not being able to focus on anything else!

So I've decided to take another week off work in Aug and spend some time with Miss Sarah. But
in the meantime I'm trying my best to spend some extra time with her now that things are coming back to normal. And except for a few times when her stress level was peaking she did pretty good with all the stress our family was under while Mom was in the hospital. But I can honestly say the heat and humidity didn't like her too much... she would call me at work several times a day to tell me how bad it was... at one point she asked if I could get a hold of mother nature and tell her she had to stop the sticky weather. Well I avoided laughing and told her there wasn't much anyone could do and her reply to me was "momma you don't understand you don't have to live with this everyday like I do".... that's my girl... makes Momma laugh every day.

So yesterday was my first time taking Sarah to see a movie. We went to see Romona and Beezus and it was great. I was so worried she wouldn't like it. So worried she would loose control if the noise was too hard to handle. But we did it. First we stopped to play in the game room, then off to get our popcorn and pop... then off to the theater a little early so she could find a seat she would be comfortable with and it all worked... so did it. Her hearing aids adjusted the volume for her and we got to sit for a couple of hours and just watch a great family movie.

Sadly though with kids who suffer from Anxiety also have trouble settling down so when we left the movie after being in such a high state of excitement it meant tears for no reason... tears for not remembering that she already asked a question... I always feel so bad for her when that happens but I know the experience of going to the movie.. or doing an activity is so worth it. So we immediately come home... she goes to her room and spends quiet time relaxing and laying down till things come back to her normal again... its a technique I find easier to teach her as she gets older... its almost like meditation for her and it works well... with in an hour or so she's all relaxed. Her therapist tries to get her to learn how to change the channels... but she just can't catch on to that theory but she is actually doing it by relaxing and being alone till she can calm down!!!

So today its raining and we get to spend the day pretty much doing nothing.... so this morning we watched the Wizard of Oz... the last time I tired to watch it with Sarah her anxiety was just too high and she worried about EVERYTHING that was going to happen so we had to stop the movie it was just too stressful for her to watch but now... we made it through the entire movie and it was so nice to see the ending with her.

Well its time to do some cooking for my # 1 son... he loves his momma's cooking. Then its time to do some work and then pretty much nothing the rest of the day. Tomorrow morning its back to the grind and back to pealing Sarah's arms off my neck bagging me not to go to work but for today its a lazy day and all is good.... cause we only take each day for what's its worth... never worry about tomorrow cause there's always hope that tomorrow will be as good as today!